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Today is Olivia’s birthday. Compassionate, a gifted artist, an entrepreneur, a loving wife and mother, a faithful daughter to her ailing mom. She encompasses all that is admirable and wonderful about being a woman. Andy and Olivia met in an underground bank parking lot in Minneapolis. Andy had a car detail business in the parking lot, and Olivia was the parking lot attendant. Their relationship grew into something incredibly special. I find it remarkable how people of diverse backgrounds, cultural and family, find in one another that special connection that links them together forever.

Here is a poem I gave Olivia on my birthday in 2015.

The Gift Of Olivia

Welcoming, oh, how the love
of two people welcome
into their lives the love of a
child. Daughters and Sons,
some born into this love,
and others adopted. Ah,
but you are more special,
you became my daughter,
the avenue of your entrance
into the heart of my family
through the love of my son,
nuptials blessed, his dream
fulfilled, and I? I am gifted with
another daughter to love.
Extraordinary from the start,
passing into the hearts first
of my parents, double dating
no less, long football Sundays
trapped on the leather couch,
running the familial gauntlet
of Andy’s maternal relatives,
all with such ease and grace.
Long an artist before formally
acknowledged, your gift of
composition, light and color
captures images long lasting.
The gift of your self equally
capturing my heart, a heart
that welcomes you and
cherishes you, my daughter,
as mine own.

(c) 2015, Robert Charles Wagner. All rights reserved.

In 2016, on my birthday, I gifted my family with a piano song written specifically for them. Here is the song I gave to Olivia.

Olivia is of Filipino ancestry, why does the song sound Irish? When Ruth and I celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary, we and all our kids traveled to Ireland. Andy and Olivia were engaged, and she is part of our family. Olivia is among some of the most fondest memories of that memorable time in the life of Ruth and I.

What more can I say to honor her on this special day?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR DAUGHTER, OLIVIA!!! HOPE THIS DAY IS VERY SPECIAL FOR YOU!

REFLECTION ON THE 18^TH SUNDAY IN ORDINARY TIME, 2019

We often hear the term “The American Dream”. We will hear this being referenced quite a bit by politicians over the next year and a half, especially during this election cycle (when are we ever not in an election cycle?). Exactly, what is The American Dream? How do others define it? How do we define it? The readings for this Sunday may help us discern, shape, and refine what we mean when we say The American Dream.

The author of Ecclesiastes (Ecc 1:2; 2:21-23) points out a common human situation for us. Many will work multiple hours, use all their experience, knowledge, and economic resources to acquire wealth only to find it all given away to those undeserving. The author states that all this work, all the worry that goes into acquiring great wealth that is easily given away not only folly, but the epitome of human vanity.

Building on this wisdom from the Book of Ecclesiastes, Jesus tells the parable of the rich man who, in having an abundant harvest, tears down his barns and storage bins to build even larger ones in which to store his wealth upon which to party the rest of his life, only to die and not benefit from the wealth he has acquired. Jesus concludes the parable with the words, “You fool, this night your life will be demanded of you; and the things you have prepared, to whom will they belong?” Then Jesus turns to us and states, “Thus will it be for all who store up treasure for themselves but are not rich in what matters to God.” (Luke 12: 20b-21, NAB) How do these two readings shape our understanding of The American Dream.

For many in our nation, on Wall Street, Main Street, and our government, The American Dream can be summed up in the words of the character Gordon Gekko from Oliver Stone’s movie, “Wall Street.” Gekko in addressing the stockholders of his corporation, Teldar paper, utters these infamous words.  “The point is, ladies and gentlemen that greed, for lack of a better word, is good. Greed is right. Greed works. Greed clarifies, cuts through, and captures the essence of the evolutionary spirit. Greed, in all of its forms, greed for life, for money, for love, knowledge, has marked the upward surge in mankind and greed, you mark my works, will not only save Teldar paper, but that other malfunctioning corporation called the USA. Thank you very much.”*

Gordon Gekko defines The American Dream to mean unbridled and undisciplined greed, that is to acquire great wealth and power at the expense of others and the Common Good. Jesus tells us in the Gospel that living a life of greed is a life that is empty. Jesus instructs us to focus instead on treasures that are of God. So what are these treasures that matter so greatly to God? Paul, in his letter to the Colossians (Col 3:1-5, 9-11), helps us understand this in terms of our behaviors.

Paul first reminds us that having died and been raised with Jesus in baptism, we must seek not the things of this earth, but rather seek the treasures of God. He then goes on to explain to us , that since we are now human, as God meant humanity to be, we must cast away from ourselves behaviors that are subhuman. He writes, “Put to death, then, the parts of you that are earthly: immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and the greed that is idolatry. Because of these the wrath of God is coming upon the disobedient. By these you too once conducted yourselves, when you lived in that way. But now you must put them all away: anger, fury, malice, slander, and obscene language out of your mouths. Stop lying to one another, since you have taken off the old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed, for knowledge, in the image of its creator. (Col 3: 5-10, NAB)

Paul challenges us to look at our lives, to look at our behaviors. Are we living lives defined in greedily acquiring not only wealth and power, but anything and everything that satisfies our senses: sex, the finest foods and wines, and opulence? If this is our lives, then our lives will not be fulfilled, rather they will be empty and pointless, prone to despair that the author of Ecclesiastes describes so vividly and prone to an eternal life in a void utterly separated from God.

This does not mean that we must live the austere life of a hermit. There is nothing wrong in owning a nice car, and home, being sexually active with our spouse, going on a nice vacation, and earning a good living. However, we must put everything we have in our lives in its proper place so that we do not obsess so much over what we have so that our lives become so unbalanced our things end up owning us. A good balanced life of a disciple of Jesus focuses on giving thanks to God for that which we have and share the excess with those who are in most in need.

There is a story about a man who acquired great wealth during his lifetime and was now on his deathbed. He called his family together and told them to put all his wealth in the attic of his home, so that when he died he would take it with him to heaven. The man died, and his wife instructed the children to go to the attic. There is a vast pile was all his wealth and treasure. When his wife heard this she said to them, “I told the old fool to put in all the basement.”

In light of the scriptural readings for this Sunday, I find The American Dream defined not in terms of satisfying our own greed at the expense of others and the Common Good, but rather advancing our lives, the lives of our family, and the lives of all people in our nation to live in peace, harmony, and wellness.

The author of Ecclesiastes writes, “For what profit comes to man from all the toil and anxiety of heart with which he has labored under the sun? All his days sorrow and grief are his occupation; even at night his mind is not at rest.” (Eccl 2: 22-23b, NAB) Or, as Jesus says in the Gospel of Mark, “What profit is there for one to gain the whole world and forfeit his life?” (Mark 8: 36, NAB) The readings leave us with these two questions, “What do we treasure in our lives? What are our treasures?”

*Quote from the 1987 movie, Wall Street, directed and co-written by Oliver Stone.

I wrote this poem following a rather sleepless night, last night. This doesn’t happen often, but, for some reason did last night. As I usually do, I plug my headphones into my tablet and listen to the music I have stored on it. The first song I heard was “Our House”, from the 1970 Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young album, Deja Vu. This song, along with the song, “Teach Your Children”, from that album were my favorite songs from that album during the summer of 1970. That album gave the United States some hope during a dark time in American history, a hope we are still desperately needing during these darker times of our present.

OUR HOUSE

A long night of sleeplessness,
a rarity usually for me.
I slip the headphones on,
plug them into my tablet
and tap one of my playlists.
Graham Nash begins to sing
the opening lyric to the song,
“Our House,” a musical
time machine sending me
suddenly back to the summer
of nineteen seventy, riding in
the company pickup truck at
the mall where I worked,
inspecting the fence line,
picking up the litter the
wind blew up against
the fence the night before.

This song comes over the radio,
a song that hold for me
the future I dream for us.
I had proposed marriage to you
earlier, lovingly declined
with college ahead of us,
we had more life
to explore, but I knew
you to be my future.
Patient, but resolute,
my intent to make you
the center of my life forever.

I pondered, as I picked up
the soiled disposable diapers,
“Will we have two cats in the yard?
Will we gaze at the fire for hours
and hours,” as I put the discarded
fast food wrappers and crushed cups,
and, “Really? Used condoms?!”
into the garbage bag. Was
Nash’s dream for Joni Mitchell
our dream, our future happiness?
Probably not. We would have
an idyllic life of our own making.

My co-worker and I throw
our filled trash bags in the
back of the pickup truck.
Though the song ends, and
a new song begins, Graham
Nash’s song lingers in my
consciousness as it still
does this long sleepless night.
You turn toward me in our bed,
(my resolve paid off), as I
ponder: two cats, no, but a dog,
four children, five grandchildren,
in our yard. Flowers from our
garden in a vase. No fire upon
which to gaze for hours, but
a plentitude of love songs I
have composed for you,
over the past forty-nine years.

It’s not quite the list that
Graham Nash dreamed for
an idyllic life with Joni Mitchell,
a life that never materialized.
It was our life together
by which we created
“Our House.” It has always
been you who have made
our house, our home. idyllic.
Your right arm falls across
my chest, this beloved song,
this bucolic future dream
from our past, sounds its
final chord through my
headphones as I drift
off to sleep in “Our House.”

(c) 2019, Robert Charles Wagner. All rights reserved.

These are three prayer songs for immigrants around the world, and, especially for those trying to find refuge in our nation.

My sister, Mary Ruth, while she was still living, started to investigate some of our family history. She found the immigrant records of my paternal grandfather, Andrew Wojnar who immigrated by himself as a boy of 16 years (he tried stowing away a year earlier) from Poland, and my maternal grandfather, Oscar Jernstrom, who immigrated as a teenager from Sweden. My paternal grandmother, Katherine, immigrated as a three year old child from Poland. My maternal grandmother, Mary Marron, immigrated with her family, probably in one of the “coffin ships” from Ireland, fleeing the religious persecution of the English, the abject poverty of Ireland and the potato famine. All my grandparents were fleeing from poverty with the hope of building new lives in a new country. It is absolutely true that with the exception of Native Americans and Latinos, all the rest of us are “anchor babies”, children of immigrants fleeing to a new nation trying to build new lives.

In January 2016, I witnessed the plight of the many Syrian refugees dying trying to flee the violence of Syria, many of them drowning in their attempt. Many Greek fisherman spent more time saving these immigrants and helping them to new life, then they spent fishing. This was an heroic act of Christian love, whether these fishermen were Christian or not! Pope Francis 1 was moved by the great love that was bestowed upon the immigrants and sponsored several families, all of them Muslim.

At the same time, in contrast, we began to encounter in the United States a reversal of our nation’s long policy of welcoming immigration, the Statue of Liberty our symbol of this generosity. Instead a new policy based on religious prejudice and racial prejudice is preventing immigrants, like my grandparents, who fled from poverty and tyranny, from coming and settling with us to build new lives. And, now, instead of helping immigrants, we are separating immigrant children, some still breast feeding, from their parents, and imprisoning them in cages like animals along our southern border. The SIN of this policy is so appalling, and in direct opposition on the principles upon which our nation was created by our Founding Fathers. The cruelty and heartlessness of those racists who have perpetrated these policies is explicit.

As you listen to this music, reflect on these questions. Am I person who welcomes those who are new to my community, or do I look upon them as pariahs and people to be feared? Do I see the face of Joseph, Mary, and Jesus in the men, women, and children fleeing the violence of Latin America, the Middle East, Europe, Africa, and Asia? How do I personally welcome the strangers in my life?

This first song, was composed as a prayer for all immigrants and refugees world wide in January of 2017. It is part of a collection of songs called “The Lamentation Psalm Offerings”. The song is based on these two scriptural passages.

“Judah has gone into exile with suffering and hard servitude; she lives now among the nations, and finds no resting place; her pursuers have all overtaken her in the midst of her distress.” (Lamentations 1:3)

“Now after they had left, an angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream and said, ‘Get up, take the child and his mother, and flee to Egypt, and remain there until I tell you; for Herod is about to search for the child, to destroy him.’ Then Joseph got up, took the child and his mother by night, and went to Egypt, and remained there until the death of Herod. This was to fulfill what had been spoken by the Lord through the prophet, ‘Out of Egypt I have called my son.’” (Matthew 2:12-15)

The second and third prayer songs for immigrants come from my collection Psalm Offerings Opus 10, composed in the summer of 2018.

The second prayer song was composed for the Latino mothers who have had their babies, some still nursing at the breast, viciously ripped from their arms by agents of our government, and then imprisoned for the crime of wanting a new and safe life for their children. The scriptural passage is from the prophet Jeremiah.

“Thus says the Lord: A voice is heard in Ramah, lamentation and bitter weeping. Rachel is weeping for her children; she refuses to be comforted for her children, because they are no more. Thus says the Lord: Keep your voice from weeping, and your eyes from tears; for there is a reward for your work, says the Lord: they shall come back from the land of the enemy; there is hope for your future, says the Lord: your children shall come back to their own country.” (Jeremiah 31:15-17)

The third prayer song was composed for the immigrant children who were ripped from the arms of their parents by agents of our government and imprisoned in cages in prisons on our borders. The songs is based on two scriptural passages from the book of Exodus and from the prophet Isaiah.

“Now a new king arose over Egypt, who did not know Joseph. He said to his people, “Look, the Israelite people are more numerous and more powerful than we. ¹⁰ Come, let us deal shrewdly with them, or they will increase and, in the event of war, join our enemies and fight against us and escape from the land.” Therefore they set taskmasters over them to oppress them with forced labor. They built supply cities, Pithom and Rameses, for Pharaoh. But the more they were oppressed, the more they multiplied and spread, so that the Egyptians came to dread the Israelites. The Egyptians became ruthless in imposing tasks on the Israelites, and made their lives bitter with hard service in mortar and brick and in every kind of field labor. They were ruthless in all the tasks that they imposed on them. The king of Egypt said to the Hebrew midwives, one of whom was named Shiphrah and the other Puah, “When you act as midwives to the Hebrew women, and see them on the birthstool, if it is a boy, kill him; but if it is a girl, she shall live.” (Exodus 1:8-16, NRSV)

 “Trample my courts no more; bringing offerings is futile; incense is an abomination to me. New moon and sabbath and calling of convocation— I cannot endure solemn assemblies with iniquity. Your new moons and your appointed festivals my soul hates; they have become a burden to me, I am weary of bearing them. When you stretch out your hands, I will hide my eyes from you; even though you make many prayers, I will not listen; your hands are full of blood. Wash yourselves; make yourselves clean; remove the evil of your doings from before my eyes; cease to do evil, learn to do good; seek justice, rescue the oppressed, defend the orphan, plead for the widow.” (Isaiah 1:12-17, NRSV)

Today is Ruthie’s birthday. I am so in awe and love of this woman, and because of the recovery from my surgery feel so badly because I am unable to celebrate her life in a manner befitting one of her great stature. So, I present here two poems and a song honoring this most wonderful person who has shaped my life so greatly.

INTERLUDE: RUTH 1

A beautiful canvas
decorated with freckles,
eyes of brown,
sparkle with dreams
of a future yet-to-be,
a heart-warming smile
hinting of a giggle
seeking to be expressed,
encompassed by a frame
of full, lush brunette hair.
Cheeks ruddy with joy,
your face flush with compassion
speak of your life then
as it is now.
Were it not the distance
that parted us, even then,
I believe, our hearts
would have been drawn together,
 two hearts linked by mystery,
two hearts joined as lovers
join hands,
and simply rejoice in being present.
Oh, what I would give
to eavesdrop on the whispered thoughts
and feelings we might have shared then,
laden with innocence, yet
preternaturally formed by
God’s breath over the waters of time.
Gifted and blessed were all
your eyes beheld at your birth,
how gifted and blessed am I.

© 2014, Robert Charles Wagner. All rights reserved.

This song was composed for Ruthie as a Christmas present in 1990. The songs for Opus 3 were based on the Christmas stories we hear every year. The story I chose for Ruthie was that of the Presentation, when Mary and Joseph brought their child, Jesus, to the Temple to offer sacrifice. It was there where they encountered Simeon and Anna. It was an encounter with divine mystery as Simeon gave praise to God for having his eyes behold the Messiah. He told them that their son would be a sign of contradiction for the world. And, to Mary, as a result of her son’s ministry, a sword of sorrow would pierce her heart. The music reflects the mystery the Holy Family encountered that day. The melody is not as straight forward as in other songs I have composed, but enclosed within the harmonies.

Ruthie has always been a person of mystery for me, and, yes, I would say, a person of Divine Mystery for me. One thing I have said consistently from the time we were dating is that there is the mystery of the Trinity and the mystery of Ruthie, two mysteries which I will never fully understand. The one thing about a mystery is that I find myself always surprised.

The poem, “Learning How To Walk” is a poem I wrote in 2015. The poem uses the physical act of walking as a metaphor about a journey helping me to find meaning in my life. It is true that the years before I met Ruthie were one of self-discovery. However, it has been in my 50 year old relationship with Ruthie (counting our years dating), that I have truly discovered who I am. She has allowed me to grow as a man in so many ways, and, I will never forget it. I will be forever a student at her feet, learning from this great teacher of love.

LEARNING HOW TO WALK

When did I learn to walk?
The awkward stance,
a toddler’s uncertain step,
stumbling, falling,
getting up again until
rhythm  of feet and
balance work in sequence,
was that when I learned
to walk? No.

When did I learn to walk?
Kindergarten marches,
a military parade of sorts
around a classroom,
rhythm band instruments
in hand, banging on toy
cymbals and drums
to the measured beat
of feet and blare of
prerecorded sound? No.

When did I learn to walk?
Was it the long hours
in marching band
practicing routines,
memorizing music,
and the beating of feet  
on hot pavement along
humid parade routes on
July mornings in hot
woolen uniforms? No.

When did I begin
to learn to walk?
From the moment
I held your hand, strolling
by the Strand Theater
on the sidewalks of St.
Paul, along the shores
of Lake Como on
Spring and Summer nights,
through Rosedale, your
hand in mine as we looked
at engagement rings
in jewelry store windows
and dreamed dreams.

I learned to walk
in earnest down
the aisle of
St. Bridget of Sweden,
into a new wedded
life filled with
wonder and love,
the many walks of
pregnancies, Pitocin
drip walks down
hospital corridors,
during nights with
restless infants, and
sick children, to
parks and baseball
diamonds, plays
and musicals, concerts
and gymnasiums,
graduations, weddings,
funerals, grandchildren,
all of them walks
along the spherical
path of life.

To walk with you is
to learn how to love,
each measured step,
a grace-filled journey
to something greater,
far beyond and far better
than the stumbling steps
that I could have
made on my own.

To  walk with you,
is to see the
world with different
eyes, colors bursting
through the greys,
warmth on the
coldest of days, your
voice floating, playing
delightfully in the air
alongside until the
sound settles gently,
gracefully in my ears.

We have walked many
steps together in life,
my gait now not as steady,
these days of uncertain
limbs, joints and cane.
In walking with you,
new discoveries never
end, new beginnings
abound, and that
with you, the first
and the finest of
all teachers, learning
to walk is never
fully learned.

© 2015, Robert Charles Wagner. All rights reserved.

I remember back in college reading “stream of consciousness” writing. My professor had us open to the end of James Joyce’s novel “Ulysses”, in particular, the thoughts of the prostitute as she was drifting off to sleep. Sentences ran together, one thought making a giant leap to another topic altogether. I was greatly impressed by the creativity of Joyce, and the way he was able to capture in words, that which many of us experience, especially at night. This poem is, in essence, composed in my own version of a stream of consciousness, as experienced in one night’s sleep. I fall asleep, awaken, glance at the time projected on the ceiling, fall asleep again, only to waken, and then fall asleep again throughout the night. The dreams are accurate (I’m sure Jung would have a field day. The dog’s injuries and symbolic of my own injuries and time in the ER? Religious services in a converted theater. Is that which we celebrate in religious services real, or is it just an elaborate play with fancy costumes? I am not too sure why my deceased brother showed up, but then, his cremains still remain in my bedroom, as I await the ability to walk again and have them buried on my sister’s grave. And, so on.). Here is the poem

I awaken.
Another night filled
with dreams. My
pet dog, Belle,
set upon by several
mastiffs, I picking up
her torn, limp body
in my arms and enter
the E.R. of the local
hospital, where her
wounds are stitched
up as I record it all
on my cell phone,

I awaken,
another dream, the
theater on Main Street
transformed into a
church, my brother
haunting the space,
the front row, stage right
his place, as I assist at
Mass, ducking out after
Communion to the
coffee shop next door,
sipping a sixteen ounce,
skim, chocolate latte,
no whip cream, Patty,
the proprietor smiling
at me … the one
pleasant part of
this long night of dreaming.

I awaken.
Squinting at the time
projected in red numerals
on the ceiling, 8:44 am,
eight hours have passed
since I settled in bed
for the night. My mind
goes back to the nightmare
of 2011, remembering
the long nights I spent
in bed. From 9:30 pm,
when you left for work,
to 8 am as you entered
our bedroom. Turning,
bandage changing, another
round of antibiotics, a
seemingless cycle of
no respite for either of us,
hopping from bed to commode,
then from commode
to my chair, a journey
made numerous times daily.

I turn seeing your
sleeping form next to me.
You open your eyes,
gazing at me and repeat
the words that saved me
many years ago. “This
will pass. You will heal.”
I swing my feet over
the side of the bed.
A one, two, three and
up on my right leg,
grasping the awaiting
walker with both hands,
the beginning of
another day.
As I begin to hop to
the bathroom, I think,
“Here I go. Another day.
Five, or is it,
Seven weeks to go?”

(c) 2019, Robert Charles Wagner. All rights reserved.

Today we hear two very familiar stories. God is intent on destroying Sodom and Gomorrah for the evils that the two cities were perpetrating against humanity. Abraham pleads with God to spare the two cities so that those who are innocent do not suffer the horrible fate of the those who are evil. God agrees that if there is a minimum of 10 innocent families, God will not destroy the cities. In Luke’s Gospel, we hear Luke’s version of the “Lord’s Prayer”, and the familiar parables about God’s generosity. Rather than focus on God’s willingness to hear and grant our prayers, I would like to focus on the contrasting pictures of God that the three readings (I will get to Paul’s letter to the Colossians) with which we are presented.

To begin this reflection, I go back to my favorite definition of God which Benedictine Sister Joan Chittester wrote a number of years ago. She wrote, “God is changing changelessness.” I think this is important for us to keep in the back of our minds especially when we read/hear the contrasting descriptions of God throughout all of sacred scripture. God never changes. God remains God. However, humanity’s understanding of God is ALWAYS changing.

In the reading from Genesis, the God we encounter is the warrior God of the warring nomadic tribes. Abraham was a war lord of a nomadic tribe. The story of Abram soon to be Abraham was one of Abram choosing a God other than the gods of his people from the city of Ur. In cutting a covenant with this “new” God, Abram was transformed into Abraham. The God of Abraham would later be known in history as Israel’s God.

The gods of these ancient tribes were not to be trifled with. You cross them and you will find yourself diced up into little pieces and fed to the dogs. A case in point, note how Yahweh deals with Pharaoh and the people of Egypt, namely, the ten horrific plagues and the drowning of the Egyptian army and Pharaoh in the Red Sea. Yahweh dealt with equal severity those who adored the Golden Calf.

Contrast this picture of the warrior God with that of the God of the prophets and poetic literature. In the Song of Songs, in rather erotic terms, God is the lover who like a gazelle leaps after his Beloved, upon whose physical attributes I will not expound except to say, think of pomegranates. In prophetic literature,  God’s portrait begins to be transformed into the husband of an adulterous Israel. The people of Israel, ignoring the covenant cut with Yahweh by their ancestors began to adore the gods of the Canaan. God, the much abused husband of an adulterous wife, maintains the covenant cut with Israel, even though she is cheating on him. God knows that her adultery will bring down great ruin upon Israel and allows it to happen. (God loves her so much that he gives her what she wants even if it might destroy her.) When Israel, beaten and broken, eventually returns to her husband, God welcomes her back and loves her as before. The Book of the Prophet Hosea is a an allegory of God, the maligned husband, married to a cheating harlot.

Now contrast these two pictures of God with the God Jesus paints for us today in the Gospel. Jesus describes God as his Abba, his daddy. Jesus’ God is the father of the prodigal son. Jesus’ God is painted as the one, who, you can go to for anything and be granted what you need. This is the God with whom Jesus has a most intimate relationship (see the Last Supper Discourse from John’s Gospel). In the language of Paul, this is the God with whom we share in the same son and daughter relationship as that of Jesus. We enter into this intimate relationship through baptism, the means by which we become adopted daughters and sons of God.

Yet we run into a conundrum. Not everything for which we ask we will receive. Not everything we seek will we find. To the “ask and you will receive, seek and you will find”, what about Jesus? Not everything for which he asked did he receive.

In the Passion accounts of the Gospels, with the exception of John, Jesus prays to his Abba to take away the torture and execution that awaits him the next day. In Matthew and Mark’s accounts, his Abba remains silent and does NOT answer Jesus’ prayer. In Luke’s account Jesus’ Abba sends an angel to comfort him. Nevertheless, God allows Jesus to be brutally tortured and executed. Why? Is the loving Abba of Jesus suddenly revealed to be the cruel and heartless warrior God of Abraham who has no problem obliterating the civilizations of Sodom and Gomorrah? Did a vengeful God needed his “pound of flesh” (“Merchant of Venice, William Shakespeare) to get even with an evil humanity, even if that pound of flesh was extracted from his own son, Jesus?

This bloodthirsty God whose demand for a reparation for our sins has been a stumbling block for many people. The existentialist philosopher and author, Albert Camus, struggled with this question all of his life. He could never reconcile this idea of a bloodthirsty God with the portrait of God that Jesus gives to us, especially in the Gospel of Luke. As a result, Camus rejected Christianity. How do I reconcile this is in my own faith life?”  

One, God did not demand that Jesus had to die. The power of SIN in the world had turned human hearts into inhuman hearts black and dead. This is an inhumanity that lived lives absent of all love. This is an inhumanity for whom greed, vengeance, and eye for an eye a tooth for a tooth was the main law of existence. Into this vast history of dead humanity, in which death, greed, and vengeance is the rule of life, Jesus is sent to give an alternative way of living. The rule of life, which Jesus reveals that God intended for humanity from the moment of creation, was that of selfless love, not being served, but serving the needs of those most in need. Jesus taught that in giving of ourselves for this new Gospel, this new rule for life, while our lives may be sacrificed, we will not die but have everlasting life.

In Colossians, Paul writes today, “And even when you were dead in transgressions and the uncircumcision of your flesh, he brought you to life along with him, having forgiven us all our transgressions;  obliterating the bond against us, with its legal claims, which was opposed to us, he also removed it from our midst, nailing it to the cross. (Colossian 2: 11-14, NAB)

The dark heart of inhumanity would never be receptive to this new way of living. In spite of all the miracles of Jesus, feeding the 5000, calming the storm at sea, the exorcism of demons, the raising of people from the dead, the dead, black heart of inhumanity refused to change. As in the case of many of the prophets, in order to silence the prophet, inhumanity has to kill the prophet.

Jesus was not stupid. He knew that eventually the power of inhumanity would turn against him. His own religious leaders, their hearts equally dead and blackened, plotted the execution of Jesus. As horrific as this eventuality would be for him, Jesus reluctantly but resolutely accepted the fate of the prophets of his own religion. God, his Abba, didn’t take any vengeful glee from Jesus’ gruesome torture and execution. God, his Abba, grieved, as do all parents grieve the death of their children. However, God the Abba also knew what Jesus knew. In order for the cycle of death and destruction to be ended in human life, inhumanity had to be altered dramatically. The Gospel of Love had to reign supreme over the gospel of death. The only way for this to be achieved was Jesus dying in love for those whom he had created.

In order for this to happen, Jesus’ Abba, had to stand by in silence and allow inhumanity works its worse on the One for whom the Abba loved the most. As hard as this was, Jesus was not the loser, as inhumanity thought, but rose victorious. Standing by in silence, was Jesus’ Abba’s greatest act of love for his Son.

This is the message of Paul in the second reading. In order for humanity to break the cycle of death and violence, humanity had to witness Love at its most powerful. Jesus did not remain dead. Rather Jesus rose from the dead in the image of what God had intended humanity to be from the beginning. This is the humanity which Jesus offers to those who will be his disciples. The pattern of Jesus death and resurrection, what we call the Paschal Mystery, would be the model of human life from this point onward.

This continues to be played out in our lives today. Inhumanity has not been eliminated from our earth, evident by the sins of many governments, including our own. Prophets, Christian and non-Christian, e.g. Pope Francis I, Oscar Romero, Brother Roger Schütz, Martin Luther King Jr, Mahatma Ghandi, continue to be persecuted and executed for proclaiming and living the Gospel of Jesus, often by their own people and religious authorities.

Abram made the choice of rejecting the gods of the City of Ur, and by choosing God was transformed into Abraham. We are offered the same choice. We can choose inhumanity and accept the gods of our world, greed, death and vengeance. Or, we can choose humanity and the God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Jesus.

Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find continues to be our mission today. And what is that mission? It is reflected in the words of Jesus as expressed in today’s Gospel.

“When you pray, say: Father, hallowed be your name, your kingdom come. Give us each day our daily bread and forgive us our sins for we ourselves forgive everyone in debt to us, and do not subject us to the final test.” (Luke 11: 2b-4, NAB)

This poem is the result of a conversation I had with Ruthie last evening. The poem does not mean to equate sexual misconduct to ordination (though there is no denying that clergy of all religious traditions, along with educators, business executives, politicians, etc. have been guilty of using their power over relationship to sexually abuse the powerless). What the poem addresses is that acting on these impulses is equally crazy, for both will impact life in a very drastic way and, in time, elicit the question, “Just what was I thinking?”

“Remember when?”,
I asked you, “When my friend
(a local musician) was arrested
for sexual misconduct
many years ago?” You
look at me puzzled at
this resurrected memory.
Your facial expression,
the raised question mark
eyebrow speak the words
yet to be spoken, “Yes, so?”
“You told me that all
musicians were crazy
and, if I would ever think
about doing something
strange, to warn you.”
You nod, your beautiful
face painted with incredulity.
“I forgot to warn you,
(I pause) that I wanted
to be ordained a deacon.”
You bend over,
kiss me on the lips,
and whisper, “Too late.”
I already know.”

You look at me confused,
haunches poised to
leap upon my lap.
Eager to slobber my face
with kisses, and for
your ears to be scratched.
I stop you, arm extended,
with a strongly articulated, “No!”
Initially, you look confused,
then hurt wondering
what wrong you have committed.
I smile, and pet your head,
my smile conveying, “It’s alright.
Not yet, but soon.”
You turn, and hop up
on the leather couch,
turning three times,
and plop into the nest
you created, and, sigh.

(c) 2019, Robert Charles Wagner. All rights reserved.

I enjoy reading poetry. Like many, I have my favorite poets, William Butler Yeats, Carl Sandberg, Emily Dickinson, Denise Levertov to name just a few. I suppose it is in reading the poems of these great poets that I try and make my pathetic attempts at poetry.

One of my favorite times in the day to read poetry is at night. I was reading poems from a wonderful source last night namely, “The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry”. Here are some of the poems that leapt off the page for me. Most are not long and are pertinent to our time.

Given the recent display of racism in our nation. This poem from Langston Hughes is very timely.

I, too, sing America

I, too, sing America.
I am the darker brother.
They send me to eat in the kitchen
When company comes,
But I laugh,
And eat well,
And grow strong.

Tomorrow, I’ll sit at the table
When company comes.
Nobody’ll dare
Say to me,
“Eat in the kitchen,”
Then.

Besides,
They’ll see how beautiful I am
And be ashamed—
I, too, am America.

Langston Hughes, 1926

. The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 717-721). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition.

This is a good question. God is all knowing we believe. Did God know what God was getting into when humanity was created?

They Ask: Is God, Too, Lonely?

When God scooped up a handful of dust,
And spit on it, and molded the shape of man.
And blew a breath into it and told it to walk—
That was a great day.

And did God do this because He was lonely?
Did God say to Himself he must have company
And therefore He would make man to walk the earth
And set apart churches for speech and song with God?

These are questions.
They are scrawled in old caves.
They are painted in tall cathedrals.
There are men and women so lonely they
believe
God. too, is lonely.

Sandburg, Carl. Harvest Poems: 1910-1960 (Harvest Book) . HMH Books. Kindle Edition.

Though this poem is from World War II, the death of our young continues just as brutally, whether it be in gun turret on a B-17 or a Humvee.

The Death of the Ball Turret Gunner

From my mother’s sleep I fell into the State,
 And I hunched in its belly till my wet fur froze.
Six miles from earth, loosed from its dream of life,
I woke to black flak and the nightmare fighters.
When I died they washed me out of the turret with a hose.

 Randall Jarrell, 1945

 . The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 1755-1760). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition.

Were we to go through the personal effects of an enemy soldier, would we not find that which is similar to ours? Pictures of children, sweethearts, parents, and others?

Reconciliation

Word over all, beautiful as the sky,
Beautiful that war and all its deeds of
carnage must in time be utterly lost,
That the hands of the sisters Death and Night
incessantly softly wash again, and ever again,
this soiled world;
For my enemy is dead, a man divine as myself is dead,
I look where he lies white-faced and still in the coffin—
I draw near,
Bend down and touch lightly with my lips
the white face in the coffin.

Walt Whitman, 1865

 . The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 1817-1824). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition.

Nature has a way of erasing all signs of human life. Look at what the jungle has done to cover up the advanced civilizations in Central America. It would take just a century for the sands of the desert to cover up all traces of human life. This poem by Carl Sandberg reminds us that for all the memorials we may construct to mark that we had lived, all the tombstones and other markers last only for a small amount of time. We, too, will pass away unknown to the rest of humanity.

Grass

Pile the bodies high at Austerlitz and Waterloo.
Shovel them under and let me work—
I am the grass; I cover all.

And pile them high at Gettysburg
And pile them high at Ypres and Verdun.
Shovel them under and let me work.
Two years, ten years, and passengers
ask the conductor:
What place is this?
Where are we now?

I am the grass.
Let me work.

Carl Sandburg, 1918

 . The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 1867-1873). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition.

The effects of war do not cease when an armistice is announced.

What Were They Like?

1. Did the people of Viet Nam use lanterns
   of stone?
2. Did they hold ceremonies to reverence the
   opening of buds?
   3) Were they inclined to quiet laughter?
   4) Did they use bone and ivory, jade and silver,
              for ornament?
   5) Had they an epic poem?      
   6) Did they distinguish between speech and
              singing?

1. Sir, their light hearts turned to stone.
   It is not remembered whether in gardens
   stone lanterns illumined pleasant ways.
2. Perhaps they gathered once to delight in
   blossom, but after the children were killed
   there were no more buds.
   3) Sir, laughter is bitter to the burned mouth.
   4) A dream ago, perhaps. Ornament is for joy.
   All the bones were charred.       
   5) It is not remembered. Remember, most        
   were peasants; their life was in rice and        
   bamboo. When peaceful clouds were        
   reflected in the paddies and the water buffalo        
   stepped surely along terraces, maybe fathers        
   told their sons old tales. When bombs        
   smashed those mirrors there was time         
   only to scream.     
   6) There is an echo yet of their speech which was          
   like a song. It was reported their singing         
   resembled the flight of moths in moonlight.        
   Who can say? It is silent now.

         Denise Levertov, 1966

 . The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 1914-1921). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition.

Though this poem applies to the time of the Cuban Missile Crises in which the world came close to World War III, look at global warming and climate change is close to ending life as we know it on Earth.

Earth

“A planet doesn’t explode of itself,” said drily
The Martian astronomer, gazing off into the air—
“That they were able to do it is proof that highly
Intelligent beings must have been living there.”

John Hall Wheelock, 1961

 . The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 1988-1990). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition.

The greatest of cathedrals, the beauty of the Sistine Chapel are mere nothings in contrast to the beauty of a field of daffodils.

I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o’er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the Milky Way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced, but they
Outdid the sparkling waves in glee;
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed—and gazed—but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

William Wordsworth, 1804

 . The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 2088-2090). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition.

I have a great problem with the Catholic Feast of Christ the King which ends the liturgical year. Jesus had nothing to do with the title of King while he was alive. In fact, when people came to crown him king he fled from them (see John’s account of the feeding of the 5000). He scoffed at the title King when interrogated by Pilate in John’s Passion. This is does not deny that Jesus is the Word or Logos of God who addresses all the universe. I think the most appropriate image of Jesus is that in the image of the vulnerable lamb. Behold the “Lamb of God.” John the Baptist cries. This is a lovely poem.

The Lamb

Little Lamb, who made thee?
Dost thou know who made thee?
Gave thee life, and bid thee feed,
By the stream and o’er the mead;
Gave thee clothing of delight,
Softest clothing, woolly, bright;
Gave thee such tender voice,
Making all the vales rejoice?
Little Lamb, who made thee?
Dost thou know who made thee?

Little Lamb, I’ll tell thee,
Little Lamb, I’ll tell thee:
He is called by thy name,
For He calls Himself a Lamb,
He is meek, and he is mild;
He became a little child.
I a child, and thou a lamb,
We are called by his name.
Little Lamb, God bless thee!
Little Lamb, God bless thee!

William Blake, 1789

. The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 2102-2110). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition.

These next two poems describe in a beautiful way, my Ruth, the love of my life.

Her Heart

Her heart is always doing lovely things,
Filling my wintry mind with simple flowers;
Playing sweet tunes on my untunèd strings,
Delighting all my undelightful hours,

 She plays me like a lute, what tune she will,
No string in me but trembles at her touch,
Shakes into sacred music, or is still,
 Trembles or stops, or swells, her skill is such.

And in the dusty taverns of my soul
Where filthy lusts drink witches’ brew for wine,
Her gentle hand still keeps me from the bowl,
Still keeps me man, saves me from being swine.

All grace in me, all sweetness in my verse,
Is hers, is my dear girl’s, and only hers.
John Masefield, 1915

 . The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 2342-2350). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition.

On a Certain Lady at Court

I know the thing that’s most uncommon
(Envy be silent, and attend!)
I know a reasonable woman,
Handsome and witty, yet a friend.

Not warped by passion, awed by rumor,
Not grave through pride, or gay through folly,
An equal mixture of good humor
And sensible soft melancholy.

“Has she no faults, then (Envy says), sir?”
Yes, she has one, I must aver:
When all the world conspires to praise her,
The woman’s deaf, and does not hear.

 Alexander Pope, 1732

 . The Seashell Anthology of Great Poetry (Kindle Locations 2353-2359). The Seashell Press. Kindle Edition. fffffffff